My constant dilemma

this always seems to happen. i start a blog, i tell myself that i will pour all of myself into it, then i abandon the project out of the frustration that as i get more personal and TRUE to my most authentic voice, fewer and fewer people are able to follow me.

i’ve always enjoyed writing. always. and i have a lot to say that i know can be of benefit to many. but perhaps blogging simply isn’t the form my writings should take.

in 2011 i endeavor to complete my first memoir (it’ll likely be done by summer, actually), which so far is filled with stories and insights that i have decided not to share here. i have too much contempt for the potential readers.

i may or may not return to this blog, but it’ll be a whole new ball game if i do return to it. i’ll say what i want to say, the way that i want to say it. nothing to lose. if i restrain & limit myself for the readers, i’m alone and frustrated. if i speak what i actually think & feel and no one really gets it, i’m alone and frustrated.

but at least that way, it’s out there.

 

more than likely, i’ll make one final go at this blog thing, starting fresh, and readers be damned. if you cannot follow, simply move along…

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